And I do.
And da Mox is a sad, tears. I'm so blessed and so needy. I spend so much time either living or planning my living that... well; that's not my angst, as EVERYONE but me knows.
I still can't shake the G. He has no... Ughh!1!.. interest in me...
As Mom said, "Where you're wanted lots, go little, where you're wanted little, don't go at all." Such wisdom. How practice Sensei? How?!!
Most dissapointed in myself, for something I can never do, I refuse! I will never close my heart, so I suppose I am dissapointed at... probably my expectations. which, given my idea of reality, expecting... i expect truth.
i expect fidelity. that has an implication of loyalty that extends beyond truth. truth with virtue, and trust. try to actually live that way. Dare you anyone!
Do you know what your religion is? Do you live that way?
A story I once heard of Budda (or a monk) who came across a scorpion in his path and realized the danger of the scorpion to be stepped on and die; the monk had no choice but to move the scorpion out of the pedestrian path, yet was stung. Next day, the monk strolled down the same path, [this makes me cry too, need a small drink, back in a sec..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxDPSWNoGLs
Reason I find myself with G is that, ughh!!! he's on phone now...
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